Saturday, January 29, 2011

Happy, but sad for and old friend

So I was feeling a bit nostalgic today and decided to look up and old friend...one who opted to stop being my friend because of my sexuality. That aside, I decided to google him and see what he has been up to.

Google pulled up a plethora of things for he and his wife. I was very happy to read that they are highly successful. It looks like there is no lack for money, which is awesome. They both are highly talented in many areas.

In searching though the different pages I did notice that so many things that he wrote were very self centered and egotistical. I was reading things on the outside sounding light hearted, but the whole message was saying, "I am the one making this great, only me. Without me this would not be as awesome." Other statements reflected, "I am so great! No one could be as great and rounded as I am." These themes resonated in everything I read that he typed. It made me sad for him. This was a good friend who, while very talented, was somewhat humble. While he did have bragging rights for accomplishments in his life, it was not so brashly trumpeted to the public as I have seen. The arrogance is saddening but also make me somewhat happy that I am no longer in contact with this type of person.

Is it success that made him so overly arrogant? Or was he like this all along and I just overlooked it all those years ago? I just hope this reflection of him being a complete dick is only how he writes, and not how he actually is, although I fear it is.

To my old friend, I still think you are talented and awesome, but don't be such a dick because you are.