It has been at least a few times a week since we moved here that I really wished we had more space in the place that we rented. Walter mentioned it again last night - our smaller than used to living quarters. Oddly enough, I saw this photojournalism piece called 100x100 today that really made me appreciate where we live an how much space we have in comparison to what others have. No more complaints of lack of closet space or our "over furnished" living room. (really, if we did not have the dresser which is great storage, it would be a perfect space to be in, but even so it is not bad as is.) Nope, nothing more from me!
Check it out for yourself. It is pretty cool.
http://photomichaelwolf.com/100x100/
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
The Friendly Skys...
You just gotta love flying Southwest Airlines! Never a dull crew. They may get a lot of flack for being a cheep airline, but I have been on flights where the flight attendants give funny announcements.. This one is just great though!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Mixture of Unexpained Emotions
Who knows why we feel the way we do when we do. Today at work the new girl started. This is the girl who got the job that I was not able to get. Now remember, I am actually glad I did not get into a job doing something that I did not want to do and into a job where I have to dress up everyday, but there are still some odd emotions running through my mind and body. I guess it could be because my boss has introduced her to everyone around my cube but me. Or it could be that I spent most of yesterday moving my cube to a different spot so she could have it. Or it could even be that I was asked to move some of the crap out of my old cube that has been there since before I was here. It is as if there was no place to put it while I was here, but for her a place needed to be found for it so it was not in the cubicle anymore.
I do remember that I am a temp. I remember that this is not my employer, Office Team is. I remember that, but somehow my feelings are still getting a little hurt, as they have been over the past few weeks. When I first started working here I was a temp. Then they saw how good I was and they treated me like a co-worker and part of the team. Once it was found that they could not hire me due to the high recruiting fees, they practically ignored me, not even giving me many things to do. I just cannot work in such a rollercoaster of a workplace! This may sound rude to all the women out there, but I cannot work in a female dominated office because of the rollercoasters! I am having issues with the whole way of office communication (even when you are 4 feet from them) is email, rarely even a phone call. It is as if offices want to avoid human contact at all costs!
I need a new job – a job where I can interact with human beings! A job where people talk to you and you are around people. I need a job where there is noise. I swear this is the quietest office I have ever worked in in my life. Given, I do work with some really nice people AND it could be the fact that I have not worked in a large office in many years and the standards have changed, but thank god I am doing it now. By doing it now, I have realized that this is no longer for me. It is not me. I need my freedom! I need people around me! I need to be creative! I moved to Austin to have that and why get into a job that suppresses that again! Anyhow, those are my feelings today!
I do remember that I am a temp. I remember that this is not my employer, Office Team is. I remember that, but somehow my feelings are still getting a little hurt, as they have been over the past few weeks. When I first started working here I was a temp. Then they saw how good I was and they treated me like a co-worker and part of the team. Once it was found that they could not hire me due to the high recruiting fees, they practically ignored me, not even giving me many things to do. I just cannot work in such a rollercoaster of a workplace! This may sound rude to all the women out there, but I cannot work in a female dominated office because of the rollercoasters! I am having issues with the whole way of office communication (even when you are 4 feet from them) is email, rarely even a phone call. It is as if offices want to avoid human contact at all costs!
I need a new job – a job where I can interact with human beings! A job where people talk to you and you are around people. I need a job where there is noise. I swear this is the quietest office I have ever worked in in my life. Given, I do work with some really nice people AND it could be the fact that I have not worked in a large office in many years and the standards have changed, but thank god I am doing it now. By doing it now, I have realized that this is no longer for me. It is not me. I need my freedom! I need people around me! I need to be creative! I moved to Austin to have that and why get into a job that suppresses that again! Anyhow, those are my feelings today!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Grateful...
So this move for us posed to be a huge change. Not like everyone would think. While it was a change of time zones, states, surroundings, weather, etc, it is even more of a lifestyle change which I am still adjusting to.
It begins with our living quarters. Our space is limited and that is a huge change. Even when we lived in an apartment, it seems like we had more room. While I am grateful for our place and its fabulous location and inexpensive rent, it is still, after 3 months, difficult to adjust to. For those of you who do not know, we moved from a 2000 sq ft 3 car garage house to an 850 sq ft no garage "house". I think it would not be so bad if we had a garage for storage to allow more space in the house, but we hardly have enough storage for what we need to regularly store. All this in consideration, I am still grateful that we are here and have a nice (other than the sloped floor upstairs) place to reside.
Then there is the money difference. It is a change budgeting and living paycheck to paycheck again, but I am super grateful that we have jobs, especially in this market. I am grateful that we make enough to pay our bills and allow us a few comforts extra. When I saw my first paycheck I was awestruck since I have not seen a check like that in about 6-7 years. I literally laughed when I saw Walter's. It is as if we were just starting out again. We did it once and built up to great salaries and a very comfortable life, we can definitely do it again! Grateful that within a month Walter was able to move from a job that was not particularly his style, to a job which suited him better with more pay and less hours. I am grateful that, while be it a temp job, I am working and bringing in a decent wage. I am super grateful that we found jobs when I have heard of others still looking after 3 or 4 months. I am really grateful for the help that friends have given us in our pursuits of employment, whether they worked out or not.
We are blessed beyond belief; with friends, jobs, a great new city, and everything we need here. When I question if the timing for this move was right, I have to look at the facts; while our lifestyle has sacrificed some, we have been graced with so much more. For all this, I am truly grateful!
It begins with our living quarters. Our space is limited and that is a huge change. Even when we lived in an apartment, it seems like we had more room. While I am grateful for our place and its fabulous location and inexpensive rent, it is still, after 3 months, difficult to adjust to. For those of you who do not know, we moved from a 2000 sq ft 3 car garage house to an 850 sq ft no garage "house". I think it would not be so bad if we had a garage for storage to allow more space in the house, but we hardly have enough storage for what we need to regularly store. All this in consideration, I am still grateful that we are here and have a nice (other than the sloped floor upstairs) place to reside.
Then there is the money difference. It is a change budgeting and living paycheck to paycheck again, but I am super grateful that we have jobs, especially in this market. I am grateful that we make enough to pay our bills and allow us a few comforts extra. When I saw my first paycheck I was awestruck since I have not seen a check like that in about 6-7 years. I literally laughed when I saw Walter's. It is as if we were just starting out again. We did it once and built up to great salaries and a very comfortable life, we can definitely do it again! Grateful that within a month Walter was able to move from a job that was not particularly his style, to a job which suited him better with more pay and less hours. I am grateful that, while be it a temp job, I am working and bringing in a decent wage. I am super grateful that we found jobs when I have heard of others still looking after 3 or 4 months. I am really grateful for the help that friends have given us in our pursuits of employment, whether they worked out or not.
We are blessed beyond belief; with friends, jobs, a great new city, and everything we need here. When I question if the timing for this move was right, I have to look at the facts; while our lifestyle has sacrificed some, we have been graced with so much more. For all this, I am truly grateful!
Monday, March 16, 2009
Ever wish you had a lot of money
I do. Every day. It would make life and decisions so much easier and more difficult at the same time. Here is why I want unlimited money today.
I am at work; a temp job that cannot hire me because of the high cost of the agency fees. I am not hurt, I totally understand the thought behind it. (see the blessing? post). I just feel now that I am in limbo, never knowing when my last day will be here. They assure me that they are going to keep me as long as they can, which, truth be known, may be until the Expo, but with the new person hired, could be until next week. Who knows. I don't and that is what bothers me.
Anyhow, feeling this state of limbo, I was returning from lunch and while in the elevator I had an urgent feeling to just hit the down button and go to my car and go home unannounced. Would the really miss me? I had done all my work for the day, hell, possibly for the week. I actually finished something already that "we will look at in a few weeks". It was not only that, but the feeling of disconnect from the position as well.
Unfortuately for me, I am to damn responsible and actually think things through. As I stood for the eternity which was actually 2 floors I began thinking of all the bills that need to be paid, all the things that would fall behind if we could not pay them, etc etc etc. So I silently returned to my cube, sat down at my computer and attempted to find things to do.
My point now is...if I had the funds to not care, I could have gone home, been doing things that need to be done, and even things that don't but that I want to do. Instead, here I am trying to look busy and typing in my blog!
I am at work; a temp job that cannot hire me because of the high cost of the agency fees. I am not hurt, I totally understand the thought behind it. (see the blessing? post). I just feel now that I am in limbo, never knowing when my last day will be here. They assure me that they are going to keep me as long as they can, which, truth be known, may be until the Expo, but with the new person hired, could be until next week. Who knows. I don't and that is what bothers me.
Anyhow, feeling this state of limbo, I was returning from lunch and while in the elevator I had an urgent feeling to just hit the down button and go to my car and go home unannounced. Would the really miss me? I had done all my work for the day, hell, possibly for the week. I actually finished something already that "we will look at in a few weeks". It was not only that, but the feeling of disconnect from the position as well.
Unfortuately for me, I am to damn responsible and actually think things through. As I stood for the eternity which was actually 2 floors I began thinking of all the bills that need to be paid, all the things that would fall behind if we could not pay them, etc etc etc. So I silently returned to my cube, sat down at my computer and attempted to find things to do.
My point now is...if I had the funds to not care, I could have gone home, been doing things that need to be done, and even things that don't but that I want to do. Instead, here I am trying to look busy and typing in my blog!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Blessings?
So as many of you know, I was asked to apply for a position at the temp job I am working at. I did and was getting kind of excited over the decent pay, good benefits and full time status (especially in these rough times). I was told 2 days ago that I would not be getting the position due to the fact that HR did not want to pay the price required to buy out my contract from the temp agency.
After getting the news, I was shot. I was having a hard time functioning and, being in a very quiet office and alone in my cubicle, I had time to stew. I used the word stew because I had no way to vent or bounce out feelings to anyone. I was getting mad and frustrated and just felt like crap. I knew it was not my bosses fault. She thought HR would take care of it and I would be part of the time. I felt like I did not want to learn anymore. I did not want to put my extra into things anymore. I just wanted to go home and pout.
So many thoughts went though my mind: "What a waste of time learning all this when I could have been looking for a job" "Why am I getting so down over something that was not 100%?" "Why were they teaching me all this stuff anyhow?" "Fuck HR. Does talent now mean anything?" It was not until I got off work that day and started calling people and venting when I realized/remembered something...I did not want this job to begin with.
Even when she asked me to apply, I told her I would do it, but internally I was pondering IF I wanted to do this all day, every day. I honestly WANT to work downtown. I DON'T WANT to dress up every day. I DO WANT to be making a decent wage similar to what I made in Vegas. I DON'T WANT to be sitting behind a desk all day. I DO WANT to have things to do. I DON'T WANT to be pretending like I have things to do and surf the net all day. I DO WANT a full time spot somewhere.
I settled on the last thinking "What a great opportunity to jump into this business. How great it will look on my resume. I bet this could open up a lot of other opportunities in the future." I talked myself into it because right now, it is not easy to find a decent paying job, or any job for that matter. I was settling for something that probably I would be ok with, but not happy with in the next few months or years. I guess this was a blessing in disguise. I realize it now. I did not that day though. But now, I am feeling better and looking that
A. I still am working, temp or not.
B. I can still be job hunting.
C. There is probably something out there that I will have more of a passion for.
I guess, good things come to those who wait should be my current motto. There must be something good coming up.
After getting the news, I was shot. I was having a hard time functioning and, being in a very quiet office and alone in my cubicle, I had time to stew. I used the word stew because I had no way to vent or bounce out feelings to anyone. I was getting mad and frustrated and just felt like crap. I knew it was not my bosses fault. She thought HR would take care of it and I would be part of the time. I felt like I did not want to learn anymore. I did not want to put my extra into things anymore. I just wanted to go home and pout.
So many thoughts went though my mind: "What a waste of time learning all this when I could have been looking for a job" "Why am I getting so down over something that was not 100%?" "Why were they teaching me all this stuff anyhow?" "Fuck HR. Does talent now mean anything?" It was not until I got off work that day and started calling people and venting when I realized/remembered something...I did not want this job to begin with.
Even when she asked me to apply, I told her I would do it, but internally I was pondering IF I wanted to do this all day, every day. I honestly WANT to work downtown. I DON'T WANT to dress up every day. I DO WANT to be making a decent wage similar to what I made in Vegas. I DON'T WANT to be sitting behind a desk all day. I DO WANT to have things to do. I DON'T WANT to be pretending like I have things to do and surf the net all day. I DO WANT a full time spot somewhere.
I settled on the last thinking "What a great opportunity to jump into this business. How great it will look on my resume. I bet this could open up a lot of other opportunities in the future." I talked myself into it because right now, it is not easy to find a decent paying job, or any job for that matter. I was settling for something that probably I would be ok with, but not happy with in the next few months or years. I guess this was a blessing in disguise. I realize it now. I did not that day though. But now, I am feeling better and looking that
A. I still am working, temp or not.
B. I can still be job hunting.
C. There is probably something out there that I will have more of a passion for.
I guess, good things come to those who wait should be my current motto. There must be something good coming up.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Apparently I am more Qualified then Sarah Palin!
Here is what being bored and trying to spread work out so you have something to do the whole day can do to you. On top of all the ones on my Facebook, here is another I just did not feel the need to post there (I already posted like 5 there today).
AreYou More Qualified than Sarah Palin? | |
 | You are 83% more qualified than Sarah Palin. You're no short-term political stunt, you're the real deal, the VP the American people deserve. I guess your phone was off the hook when John McCain was calling around looking for a running mate... must've been one of those pesky robo-calls. |
| Find Your Character @ | |
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